still walking, different scenery

well, it has come to my attention (or more, i have accepted the fact) that it has been some time since i have written a blog that has relevance and is not cruel in some fashion to an extreme.

i really do love people.

interesting, i had a chat with my mother at one point while i was home, about people.

i love them, but i don't trust them. let me clarify (or at least attempt).......i trust to an extent. i question motives a lot, and have come to realize often (not always) i can read underlying motives fairly well and accurately. i believe every man is evil, as Scripture clearly outlines from the book of Genesis, to Paul's letters to the early churches. and because of this i am very cautious around most people, unless i sense there is trust there. if this doesn't make sense to you, i am sorry. i have also found lately that i have a hard time of finding words to describe things. perhaps it is because i have not journaled for some time (i need to fix that). i love doing that because i just let it all out, look at it, think about it, and then form it into something.

im realizing this is jumping around. and i have a confession to make. over the break there were a few instances that i am clearly aware of that i was up on a high horse. if there have been other instances where people feel i have been that way with them, i apologize. call this a lame attempt to set things right, but i really don't feel like waiting till may at the earliest.

among many things that have happened this break, i got to know someone better. she is special. im trying to be patient (i really really really suck at this). and that is all im saying for now.

i am actually happy to be back here in spokane. it is here that the last semester i have dug in, and i am back. i have many books to read, much to study and learn........and my books are all here, lol (well, most of them, and the ones i need the most). i was only gone a month, but so much has changed. here, back home, in my life. new situations, a new friend. i feel like my life needs organized some, lol. but here is where i leave you all for now. i have clothes to unpack 3 days AFTER i have gotten back, and i need to actually do something productive today.

still learning, walking, and trying to swim deeper, i send blessings to you all.