a conclusion

i came to a conclusion today. or perhaps it was one of those times again where i knew what the conclusion was, and i just decided to accept it. any ways, my conclusion was that it as been a few months since i had touched my book, and i really needed to start writing again, especially since i have been hooked up with an editor (oh yeah!!!!).

but here is the thing that i find funny.

i had forgotten what section topic i was writing on at this point, and it just so happens to be about patience. something i need a lot of coaching in right now. never in my life have i wanted some thing right now, even though it is unrealistic at this time. the idea of being patient and waiting is almost unbearable. and so, i smile.......i almost laugh, because i cannot help but think that God planned this out for me before time.

see, i have a grand opportunity to dive in and really study what it means to be patient. by looking at the life of Christ, Paul and other Apostles and how it played a part in their lives, i can better gain an understanding of the importance and rewards of being patient in my life here and now.

and you know what is even better?

the next section is on self-control, which is tied into patience. two prime areas in life i struggle with constantly........wanting things now, and giving in in an attempt to grasp them.......and here i am studying and writing about them!

God once again, is funny. i think i now know why i was lead to write this book. perhaps it is not so much to bless others, but to cause me to search and dig in areas of my life i struggle the most.

perhaps, this is more for me than i ever imagined.